I’m not a perfectionist
It’s been a few weeks since I told you I was presenting my final project for my masters degree. Other than that, I just had to finish up one more class which happens to end next week. You would think I would have been excited to finish after over 2 years of stress and anxiety, right?
Well, in reality, the final presentation didn’t go as well as I had hoped. Although I had been working on the project since April, I didn’t seem to get all the pieces together. I had a mentor on the project and was passing everything through him, but he didn’t catch them either before I presented to the head of the program. I got a C.
While I can still graduate with a C and get this all over with, I have never received less than a B in any college-level class. I currently have a 4.0, and since this project is the culmination of all my prior classes, it’s very strange and/or disheartening. Did I not really learn anything? Honestly, I was pretty lazy and unmotivated, so I had to roll over from the summer into the fall and pay $60. It happens to most people in my program since it’s a self-paced project and no one is yelling at you to keep on schedule.
But getting to the point, I have 3 options:
1. Take the C and finish. Only I, and now my anonymous audience (and all my friends, family and coworkers who I’ve told) will be the wiser.
2. Spend about 2 months redoing the project, resubmit to my mentor and get a B. My mentor is the one who gives me the grade, but the head of the program can override him and is the final approval.
3. Work about 4 months AND present to the head of the program again and maybe get an A.
I decided to go for the B. I’d like to get this all over with, and have seriously thought about just taking the C. I know I would never put my GPA on my resume even if I got a 4.0, but I just can’t live with a C. I don’t know what it is. If I would have to start from scratch to get a B, I would take the C, but I just have to do a little more work, so I’m going for it.
But I’ve decided to take the rest of this year off and start on it in 2010. I need a break and I want to enjoy the holidays. I have to pay another $60 for my personal satisfaction (to roll into next semester), but I feel it’s worth it.